and it goes on...
i will push myself and i dont know what gets to me the most ? i feel so old but i am so young. The silence in my heart, the loss, the pain... The internal strugle that IS my life; or ... as if in some way detached beyond a point of control, standing to the side, watching it spiral out of control across the world ... oh god what have we done ? Is this something that would of even occured to you if but not only five years ago this chain of thought would seem rediculous; but IT IS INSIDE all our hearts... and that hurts me the most :/ How am i sposed to deal with that... ?!
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